I don't want to go into the history - but things are bad between me and DP right now. We have been together for 17 years. I still love him dearly, he is my soul mate and a DECENT man. BUT the way things are, its just destroying me, and him .
Thing is, he isn't abusive, he's not been unfaithful, to be honest, its me. I have no money, and when i say i have NO money, i have none - nothing - no income and a 3 year old DD. I would have to be the one to leave, today he told me to go to the council on monday and get rehomed. There is no way i could afford the mortgage - we may be losing the house anyway. But, he isn't abusive or bad to me in any way - will the council just laugh in my face?? I don't want to end up in a hostel, that would be ridiculous - im not in any danger here. But right now, i'm not sure if it is just the fact that it is impossible to leave that is keeping me here. Yes, i still love him, I always will but the pressures of everything its just too much. Its too much for him too - I think he would be better off tbh. We are at each others throats and the hurtful comments are destroying me. I can't keep hurting him and he is hurting me too and i can't stand much more.
So what do i do, if i just can't stand anymore? How do i go on? I don't have family i could go to.