I have been married 3 years. Me and DH have everything in common and we have a comfortable life. Not many falling outs over the years, he is good to me, I can't fault him really. But I have never fancied him. We just sort of fell into a relationship. Because we had so much in common, we spent alot of time together and before I knew it, we were in a full blown relationship, living together, engaged, married, the lot. But I was happy so I never regretted it as such.
However recently I have become friendly with a man from work. We also have a lot in common, we laugh a lot, I AM attracted to him. I can't stop thinking about him. We started texting and they became riskier and more and more 'over the line'. We have started emailing. He has told me he feels the same way about me. We have met up for a drink a couple of times and now its got to the point where we were considering going away for a weekend together. I would obviously have to lie to DH. Which I have been doing a lot lately.
I don't want to hurt DH, I do love him, just not in the right way and whilst I was prepared to just 'make do' before because we were ignorently happy, I'm starting to want more and DH just can't satisfy that. At the same time, the thought of losing DH makes me feel sick. I would also lose DSD which would hurt us both. I have tried to keep away from the other bloke but I just can't I don't know what to do. Do I tell DH I'm not happy? I know I shouldn't go on this weekend, but the way I feel right now, I probably will. I just don't know what to do next