Yesterday my grandad who has lung cancer had a really bad turn, I was with him, held his haand, but its was terrifying, it really distressed and scared me.
I got home and was shakiy, I haven't been able to stop crying, he is stable now BTW.
DH was good with me last night,
but thisn morning baby wakes up at 6:45, she gets very upset very quickly so I ask him to go get a bottle, he is half asleep, baby is screaming, I have to ask him 4 times before I have to just give him baby to wake him up and go get bottle myself.
When I get back upstairs both toddlers are awake, they are jumping everywhere, DH is fast asleep within miniutes I am feeding baby.
I put kids TV on for them whilst Im sorting baby out.
ART 7:20 iVE HAD ENOUGH, i TRY TO WAKE dh UP
'CAN WE GO DOWN STAIRS PLEASE?
FAST ASLLEP.
'dh?? wAKE UP'
OPENS HIS EYES FOR 3 SECONDS THEN FAST ASLEPP AGAIN.
'dh PLEASE THE KIDS ARE PLAYING UP, i WANT TO TAKLE THEM DOWN STAIRS'
(shit sorry for the caps I dont have the energy to do it again!)
So this goes on for a few mins, he opens his eyes then closes again.
He can see Ive already been crying because of yesterday.
I say 'DH'
He opens his eyes, half sits up and says 'for fucks sake will you fucking shut up! i hate the way you whine my name'
I burst into tears , get baby out of moses basket, come down stairs crying, kids follow and hes still in bed, makes no attempt to come and cpomfort me or apologise.
I make kids breakfast then go upstairs.
Hes fast asleep.
I say 'DH will you get up, your not really supporting me after yesterday'
he looks at me and rolls over.
Hes still asleep up there
Ifeel really sick, i dunno whether Im ill or im just so sad.
Sorry if my typings crap, everythings crap, Ive had enough of him.