To understand how I am feeling you have to have a little history of my life so here goes; my childhood was less than happy, my Father was very violent, to the point he stabbed me on two separate occasions and gave me a head injury so bad it resulted in slight brain damage and slight epilepsy, my mother was uncaring, neglectful and very self-centred. She told me time and time again that she hated me and I would never amount to anything because I was nothing. When my parents split up she had countless boyfriends whom she allowed to use me as their own personal punch bag. Some people should never have kids.
However my grandparents were brilliant, I only ever felt loved, happy and safe when I was with them. My Nan past away 6 years ago and my Grandad has just been taken into hospital. My mother has not bothered with my Grandad for a few years now (the only times she has seen him she has stolen several hundreds of pounds from him).
All of a sudden she has surfaced and she is acting like the devoted daughter in front of the nurses etc but at the same time she is stealing his money, she has spoken to his consultant and put a ?do not revive order? on him without discussing it with anyone else and is demanding that his money be sorted out between her and her brothers now. He is not even dead yet!! All I want is for his last few days to be happy I don?t care about his *@@% money, I just want this to be as easy as it can possibly be for him.
DH insisted I go to a party with him last night I couldn?t cope with it, I kept checking my phone all night in case the hospital rang with bad news and I sneaked out and sat in the car to be alone, nobody noticed there were over 100 people there but DH got very angry with me and said I was being rude and is now not talking to me, this is all too hard, I feel so alone.