Finished it........

[sickfedup]

Hiya well I am bk, ppl will know my story probably, but just to recap......

My partner had bn doing coke, but put him out house for at least a year because of ths, have a 2 yr old with him and my dd from a previous relationship calls him dad

Anyway, found empty cocaine bag dwn bk of my couch about a mnth and a half ago, he had sneaked bk in after a nightout after knwin NEVER t come to my house after a drink....

Confronted him, sed he was sorry would never do it again etc...stupi idiot me believed him

But yesterday I finished it, as on Sat during an argument he was awful to me, could nnot begin to write most of the things he said to me(and then SPAT in my face, tht was it, but yesterday he was here to watch kids to let me sleep(I go thru a lot, my ds,2 has a genetic disorder, severe epilepsy, dev delay, cant walk etc) and god knws wat I was thinkin but managed to talk me round, sed he would get help etc an didn't wanna be way he is etc, but I did come to my senses and thru sobbing tol him face to face I wasn't doin this anymore, he was taken aback, but was very upset , tht is it so far.....Any1 in similar siuation, or advice etc on hw to get thru this?

Any1?

I have no experience or adice but I do remember your story and I think you are utterly doing the right thing.

I wish you all the luck and the strength you need. x

Thanku anyfucker pml at yr name lol xx

I am sure there will be further people long in a little while to offer you support.

Try bumping again this evening too.

I hope so...thanku xx

I remember your story as well, just remember that he left a coke bag down your couch, he spat in your face (*ucking disgusting) and what he said to you on saturday.
Is that the kind of life you want? No, thats why you've ditched him.
Stay strong, your doing the right thing.

Yes, I agree..if you waver and start to wonder if you did the right thing..remember him spitting in your face and know you have done the right thing!

In a very similar situation...but we have to remain in same house.

Hurts a lot.

He is all over the place. Wanted to go for a drink with DC's on saturday to show we could be friends, and then leaves the room or backs away from me at others.

Spoke to his Son, who is very understanding, but the enormity of it all makes me feel as if I am choking, Telling people, finding somewhere else to live for one of us...finances...

The DC's know and it is breaking my heart. It is such a lonely time and I am struggling to cope with getting through the day.

I have no advice, but you do have my sympathies....

I remember your story as well. What support are you getting from health visitor etc re your son. His behaviour is vile but you need to put him out and keep him there. His coke use is causing this.

Also you are not alone - many of us have been here. It hurts like hell but you have our support. Dont let yourself weaken.

Well done sickfedup!! Honestly you are doing the right thing.

I can't believe he spat in your face, that is so humiliating and disgusting , not to even mention the coke, the way he talks to you etc. He is treating you like a piece of shit and you in no way deserve that. Your children don't deserve to see their mother being treated like that. They don't deserve to see you miserable because of someone else's actions.

Keep your chin up, you will get some great advice and support on here. Stick to your guns!! You have taken control of the situ and you need to KEEP control when he comes around crying and promising to change begging for you to give him another chance. Give yourself a big huge pat on the back, getting rid of this loser now could save you years of heartache.