I'm in the black hole again

[amireallythatsad]

I've posted before.

Basically H and I separated few weeks ago.

I wasn't really sure of the entire reasons why he wasn't happy, but I asked him and he told me.

He felt hemmed in by our life, what he hadn't accomplished, we got married young, the fact that I was happy as long as we were together (i.e. I'm not a big career gal, kinda happy where life takes you and was happy supporting him), he said he felt I was pushing his life in a direction that he didn't want to go in (i.e good family, 2.4 kids etc), financially, got upset because I didn't agree with some of his choices, fell out of love with me, thinks this split is for the best etc etc etc.

But where does that leave me? I'm floored - completely. If it wasn't for DD I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

Anxiety is getting the better of me and I feel so down. I am worrying about everything.

I do feel quite low at present and in a black hole. please cheer me up.

I just want to be loved by someone

I sound so pathetic!!!

Not pathetic at all. That's a lot for you to take in. x

i am sorry for you, please accept a virtual hug, becuase i have been there.

You will survive, and that's all it will feel like you are doing some days, but you will.

xx

Thanks.
It keeps hitting me every now and then, going round and round in circles.

I want to channel that anger that is supposed to hit me, but it doesn't stay long enough for me to do anything with it. I wish I could get really angry with him, I just end up feeling sorry for him and wanting to make it better.

Blarrdy useless.

Of course you feel sorry for him. He's your husband and you love him.

That's why it's so hard when someone you love hurts you - because it doesn't make you stop loving them, it just makes you really sad and the person you need support from can't give it to you.

You don't sound pathetic, you sound heart-broken and very, very sad

Do whatever you need to do at the moment to get through each day and try to have people around who will let you be sad and give you the support you need.