I have namechanged as dp knows my talkname on here.
I think i have reached breaking point with dp and i am so confused about it all.we have been together for 17 years and were kind of thrown together when i was barely 17.Was it a case of him just being there at the time?Did i settle to escape my sitution? i dont know as i cannot even be honest with myself.I have never fallen head over heels in love with him but i do love him and he is my best friend.We initially had a good sex life but over the years has dwindled to virtually nothing.I dont have a sex drive most of the time but i wonder if that is because of him ,tiredness or because of my depression etc.He is a lovely bloke and a great dad to our 2 dc.He has never been a very sociable person(hasnt got any mates other than work)has 2 brothers but they hardly have any contact.I have mental health problems and this doesnt help the relationship i know.We also have problems with his mother and her treatment of me.I started a thread about it last week(some will know who i am now)Basically i cannot forgive him for not putting her in her place firmly enough and i cant see past it.She disrespected me and insulted me and when i asked him today(have rowed all day)"yes or no did she insult me?" he says "well she told me what she said"
I also told him what she said and that wasnt enough for him.She basically said on the phone"my priorties were wrong""my kids should come 1st"implying that they dont."We are not a proper family unit""my kids will be emotionally damaged"
All because i go to work 4 evenings a week and dd1 has started getting upset about it.
When i pointed out to her that i have to work or else we dont eat ,she said "utter rubbish" and laughed at me.
cue me getting upset blah blah.
Dp has called her and pointed out the facts and said she upset me.But he didnt feel outraged on my behalf(i have put up with bitchy comments form her for 17 years btw)
So today i have has enough ,enough of her shit and his weakness towards her(yes thats how i see it)Enough of no spark ,no lust ,no sex,excitement.
Please help meI dont know what to do or where to go?