I am feeling a little sorry for myself at the moment.
I just don't seem to have any real close friends and I am not sure what is wrong with me or why.
I am married and have DD 5 and DS 7. I work full time shifts. I have lots of friends at work but none that I socialise with much.
I have one friend who I was really close to years ago but she included another friend into our circle and then started not to include me. They do lots of stuff and never invite me. TBH I never really enjoyed my friendship with this person much as she never wanted to talk about anything but herself and I found this draining.
I met one friend 5 years ago at a group for post natally depressed women I was post natally depressed after having my daughter due to the fact that my dad died four months into my pregnancy.
This friend and I hardly see each other since she went back to work. I seem to be the one that makes the effort to get in touch to meet up and she hardly bothers.
I feel really lonely and have no real girlfriend to go shopping with or confide in.
I feel really blue at the moment and I am snappy with hubby and the kids.
I really crave a friend to be close to. I have a friend who lives a fair way from me and we have known each other 35 years. A few years ago we got in contact with some of our old school friends. We used to meet up every so often for nights out although it was difficult for me because I live 70 miles from them and work some weekends that they are off. Now they seem to meet up and not bother inviting me. I know I seem like a sad individual but I am a nice person and I make so much effort in friendships but get nothing back.
I don't know what to do about it. Joining new clubs is difficult because of the shift work. To top it all I am 40 in July which I am also finding depressing. Sorry to anyone reading this and thinking I am a saddo I just feel really lonely.