feeling so unhappy :-(

[newmummy27]

Hi
I have been here before over the last 15 months since my son was born. just feeling particularly unhappy today. to be honest i feel like i am never getting a break from my own mind. does that make sense?
I am not very happy with relationship with my husband and i feel like every day this is on my mind, it is as if i am obsessed with it, but i bottle it up and dont really have anyone to talk to so maybe thats why.
i feel like no-one is interested in me. i used to work full time and now just work part time and feel like i am spending all of my time alone/ with my son. i am just unhappy.
i told my husband last night and he wont listen or pulls a face as if i am nagging. i just dont know what to do. we started relate and went to 2 sessions but have been unable to go the last 2 weeks
i sometimes day dream about being alone so all of this would go from and i would have a weight lifted off me. but i feel ashamed. i wouldnt know where to start.
words of wisdom anyone?

hi newmummy

relationships can go through a tricky patch when new babies come along.

What were things like before you had your child?

i really feel for you. you sound like i felt after i had my 2nd dd. I associated everything i felt with my dh (i'm shocked now we're still togethor when i think how bad i felt!) , financial probs, lack of company etc, and when dd was 1 we moved house, dh finished his course and everything got better. i thought it was because of that i felt better.
Then i had 3rd dd. everything was perfect in our life but i again felt like you sound! because of that i went to the gp. he immediatly diagnosed post natal depression. meds didn't really make much difference to me but the counselling that has been remarkable. Hormones linger for a long time and children are like a pressure cooker - the good gets better and the bad gets worse. hang in there and don't make big decisions when your down.

Please go to your GP, you sound as if you have postnatal depression. When you feel that low on bad days, it does make you feel invisible, angry, unsatisfied with life and take it out on your partner. I found medication does help and some counselling if you can get it too. My Health visitor gave me great support too. You sound like you had good full time career before baby came along, and it is so bloomin' tough to go from that (& being master of your own time/abilities) to being at home with a young toddler (who no matter how cute/lovely he is.. is never going to be a great conversationalist). It can be very lonely sometimes bringing up children. Do you have other mum friends? Can you talk to them about how you feel? Please dont make decisions about your husband until your mood is more stable, give it some time, as it may not be him (although it might be), it may be the PND. At least he is going to Relate with you and that says a lot. I wish you all the best, xxx

I was going to suggest Mother & toddler/baby groups as you'll probably meet other Mums there who also gave up working full-time when they had children. I know that's what I did & I made many friends. However, if you're depressed, you might not feel like going anywhere. I agree with other posters who've recommended going to GP. I have never been on ADs, but counselling has worked for me.