Is there anyone you miss but for whatever reason don't have contact with them or can't?

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I really miss 2 of my school friends and can't find any details for them. I also miss someone I used to be close too but it isn't good to be in touch with them. I miss having a mum but letting her into my life would end in tears so I can't.

I just don't feel that one should have to miss anyone but life isn't black and white is it?

I have a friend and an ex (ex differnet story will explain later) who I havn't had contact with who I do really miss

With my friend we were very close, but a split happened within out group of friends due to one friend spreading lies about me. My close friend knew the other one (T) had been lying about me but still stuck by her. When I asked her why she hadnt spoken up and why she still stuck by T, she said that "when everyone finds out T has been lying she will have no-one.. you will alway have friends and I feel sorry for her, she will need me". I really do feel there is no going back, that even if we do meet again the innocence of our relationship would be lost. I felt betrayed by her decision and would never really trust her again

The ex, I decided not to see not because we fell out but because he would have nothing to do with our son and I couldnt continue to see him while refusing to let my son know who he was when the time came (ds is 3). He got back in touch on Thursday after 18 months, and I'm still unsure of where to go with this

I had a friend, we fell out. 3 years later I had a very strong urge to phone her and apologise and sort it out - she was understandably suspicious but we managed to rebuild.

Then a few years later, she stopped responding to emails and changed her email address - I had no idea why. Lost touch. Then Friends Reunited started their Search facility and I found her through that - emailed her, and she replied but said that she had outgrown me and wished me well (plus lots of other stuff!) I replied and said I hoped that if she ever changed her mind she would get back in touch. Nothing.

Then I emailed her after DS was born just to update her and she replied. We are now back in contact, albeit not close.. but for some reason she was one friend who I just could not let go, and still can't.