DP has finally ended things after having "feelings" for another woman. We didnt live together because I wasn't sure that he could be the equal supportive partner I needed. He never stopped badgering me about it and I never stopped saying no. So he decided first that we should be "just friends" which was bearable, as to be honest I always took everything he said at face value and hoped we could one day reach a workable arrangement. But now he has confessed he has feelings for someone else.
I am on the breakup rollercoaster, elated one minute, miserable the next. Elated because now he will (eventually) be making some other woman miserable with his contrary, childish, manipulative and often destructive behaviour, and miserable that I have been an utter mug.
I got pg with DD because I wanted a child with him, not because I wanted a child at any cost. So its slightly when he says "You wanted a baby - I gave you one"
My beautiful baby is the only reason I dont regret being with him, that is the way I feel now.
To give some idea of the kind of thing he was capable of, this was the thread I posted around the time DD was born.
I just need some kind words right now. I am devastated.