NAB - have been thinking about you. Are you okay this week?

[Fizzfiend]

Hope so...have you been keeping busy? x

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Oh God I'm so sorry!!!!

I'm assuming you haven't heard anything? It's torture ... every day is torture for you. I am so sorry. If misery loves company, can I be your company? OM is with his girlfriend today I have been a maniac keeping busy, meeting people, working out, cleaning house, but there are still too many times when my head drifts there. Life is so bloody complicated.

Aww Nab thought you were ok now?

I posted on my other thread.

I emailed him. He deleted without reading it this morning. It is all over - whatever it was.

I will be fine. My DH has been amazing today at a difficult appointment and would never ever ever cause me the heartache this other bloke has.

FF - my advice to you (for what it is worth) is tell this man it has to be all you or nothing and then walk away. It hurts too much otherwise, just make sure it is properly finished one way or another. That was our problem.

Fimbo -have had good bits and bad bits but now I think I am finally there. The email thing was really the best thing I could have done.

Thank you for your advice. I do appreciate advice, but I don't always take it when I probably should. I wanted to say that I don't remember this pain when I was young but I'm sure I had it. You're in a horrible new, empty place AND it's the most depressing month of the year. Things can only get better. YOu are so lucky to have an amazing DH.

Whatever you decide to do, make sure it is ended one way or another (with him 100% or walk away). Good luck.

How are ou today, Fizz?

Any texts?

I'm here! No texts! Either way. I am starting to feel much less crazy about the whole thing, much more in control. It's because I'm busy with stuff I think or maybe the realisation of how I'm being treated. I'm alright though today which is a good thing. Hope you are okay too. It's not so cold and the sun is out and I'm alive! Small mercies I suppose....

I have had an email.

And some texts.

Is all ok NAB?

why delete it wthout reading and then text!? Is he married/in a relationship?

sorry don't know the history of this really

what did he say NAB?

OMG!!! Do tell NAB

OMG I'm sorry I didn't even ask. I assumed he hadn't. Oh god what did he say?

I sent the message twice so he deleted the second one and read the other.

No idea what is going on and he didn't answer when I asked him why he is texting/emailing now after what he said before.

I am in a different place now so this won't go the way it was going before.

yes- but what kind of response did he give?

I don't know yet if he got my other messages and the one yesterday was about something personal to me - not him and me.

I will email him later and see what is going on.

Have catted you!

have replied to your email.

Didn't get a cat though.

Why did you email him again yesterday if your last email was supposed to be a final one etc

I just ask because i thought you were not going to persue it and sending a second email could make it look like you are interested when you are not. Even if it was something very basic that you sent, by sending it you are continuing the contact and through following your other thread I got the impression this was it.

Perhaps you need to take stock and make a firm decision about what you want?

What was his response? You now seem to be back to attempting some kind of dialogue with him - is this wise?

The email was something completely unrelated to me and him and not something I can go into on here.

Not a problem emailing him as I am past all that nonsense and won't let him start it again.

I know what I want and I am in control of what I am doing.

oh good you sound like you have turned a corner.

NAB as you know, I have been very supportive of you- couldn't CAT you as we both have to have subscribed and I haven't.
However, I think you need to evaluate if this is helpful to you now-posting here- you are getting some flack and MN are not very tolerant of anything remotely resembling the OW, IME.
I think you are better off making up your own mind over what you want to do, as you do seem very up and down over this- understandably, IMO.
I am just wirried for you that you are going to end up feeling worse from certain comments.