Hi. I'm a new member who often reads mumsnet but this is the first time I've posted. I'm a bit technically-challenged. I wondered if anyone would be kind enough to share their thoughts on this situation. I'm 38 and, while I've always dreamed of being a mum, I haven't managed it, mainly because I've either been single, commitment-phobic or with men who didn't want children. Now, I find myself becoming slightly desperate and I hate myself for it. I feel as if I have maybe two years left and it is my very last chance. An ex contacted me recently and is very keen to try again. We split up the first time (around five years ago) because I felt I didn't love him. However, in retrospect, I think I was incapable of loving anyone at that time. I was very selfish and insecure. I think I have changed a lot. I had some therapy to look at my own commitment issues and I've been single for the last two to three years. I know that in love, and in life generally, there are no guarantees, but I'm so scared about this situation. The guy is a great guy, but I don't know if my feelings for him are as strong as they should be. I would really appreciate any advice anyone might have. Many thanks.