That's the truth of it. I also feel tremendously guilty.
I'll start at the beginning. We've been friends for more than 20 years so she means a lot to me. I'd say she was my best friend.
However, over the past few years she's becoming increasingly stressed, anxious and unhappy. There are lots of issues including a very difficult relationship with her parents.
I try to give her support but am pretty limited in what I can do as I live in Scotland, she's down South. My circs are single parent, working full time so as you can imagine life is pretty busy and full on but I do what I can beacuse she means a lot to me.
Her behaviour has become increasingly 'erratic' for want of a better word. To cut a very long and distressing story short on Saturday she texted me repeatedly saying she was so unhappy she wanted to die, couldn't stop crying. This went all day with me trying to offer what support I could. She then said she was feeling better but at about half nine I got a text saying again how unhappy she was and wanted to commit suicide/go into hospital. This culminated in her telling me that she was going to take an overdose as she didn't want to wake up in the morning.
I went into a complete panic - ok not the best reaction I know - and tried to contact NHS 24, they were unbable to help as Scotland/England are different systems. Thankfully I am close to my mum so I contacted her and through a friend managed to get in touch with her parents. I was just deciding whether to contact the Met Police non emergency line to see if they could go over to check on her (given to me by NHS 24 Scotland)when she texted me to say: "It's OK Xxx is coming over"......
I can't even describe how I feel. Right now, She has contacted me to say sorry but right now I don't even know if I trust myself to speak to her. Donlt feel I even want to speak to her That's a terrible thing to say about your friend isn't it
I feel angry, guilty and worried sick all at the same time. What can I do? What should I do? I just don't know.
Thank you for 'listening'. Well not listening, YKWIM.