Basically, had a drink problem before Christmas. Thank you to all who helped me through (and it's not over yet! - I'm told it goes on for a lifetime)!!
DH is no help. That's the long and the short of it. I thought he would be so proud of me now, for doing something about it, but still he comes down in the morning/comes home in the evening without a morning/hi,how's your day been. And it's getting to me.
I honestly thought I was the cause of all his angst, because I was the way I was. Don't want to go into details, but dd2 said the other day 'Don't listen Mummy, just ignore it'. That was 'cos I'd done a big Sainsbury shop just before picking them up from school, and dh couldn't understand why I'd left all the paper towels/bog roll/tinned dog food in the car and just put the perishables away 'cos I was short of time.
Anyhow, never, ever thought about being without him, but now - well, it's a possibility, but I don't want it. But I also don't want (and especially don't want dds) to go through living a life with my life controlled by someone who will always find fault, no matter how hard I try.
Whad'ya think?
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