DD is 9mo and going through a bit of a difficult patch with regards to sleeping. I think it's probably a teething/developmental thing - normally she is a wonderfully lovely baby although granted has only very recently had a couple of goes at sleeping though the night! My problem is this: when I'm on my own with her I can cope with her crying and not going to sleep and am perfectly calm, but as soon as DH is in I become a monster. Last night I shouted at her for the first time, I also get really really annoyed at my inability to cope and hit myself several times really hard because of this. I feel guilty that I can't get her to sleep/stop crying and feel guilty when DH gets involved. He really really doesn't mind helping, he loves it in fact, but I go so crazy and try to stop him getting involved then get really angry at myself when he does. DH adores me and I worry that I am pushing him away with my developing self hatred - I swing from feeling very confident and full of self belief to hating my looks/behaviour/attitude. We've been together for 6 years (married for 3) and he's put up with things I've done in the past (mostly hitting/hurting myself) and I'm amazed he loves me as much as he does. I'm scared that by being weak I am making myself more unattractive to him. If I'm not making sense it's because we had 3-4hrs sleep last night. DH has taken her out this morning (he's taken the morning off) and I feel guilty that he's off work and that I'm sitting here on MN drinking coffee trying to sort my head out. Thanks for reading this, I feel better for writing it, but I'm not sure how I can make myself better.