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[RandomPoet]

My eyes search for you
But to see you only brings regret

My skins craves your touch
But to feel you will only delay my recovery

My lips whisper your name
But you cannot hear

My stomach churns with grief and longing
But to be near you can bring no relief now

My imagination conjures you up behind me in bed
But there is only empty space

My mind calls you to me in my dreams
where we can be together again
But the morning only brings fresh realisation
over and over again

My heart yearns for you
But it must learn to do without you

My body, which has grown your children,
feels numb and cold without yours near it

My soul seems to call to yours constantly
But it must wait for another life; to do it differently next time

I want to love you
But I must not, anymore

When will the pain stop?
What if it never does?

Thank you that was lovely.

Your poem evokes the pain of heartbreak so poignantly - I (and I'm sure many more) have experienced exactly the same feelings. If you're talking about yourself, trust that you'll get through it. I was where you are 2 years ago and am now very happy with someone else.

I can't imagine someone else Mocca. He is my childrens father and was the love of my life. I am glad things are better for you now. Thank you.

I hope you get thru this painful process. It does pass, maybe not completely, but for your childrens sake you have to. Then you'll have a void and you'll want it to be filled. That is when you meet someone and you recover and begin to rebuild without even knowing it. It will come, sweet, have heart.

Thank you Kally. What a lovely post. I already feel the void but it's a HIM void - I can't imagine anyone else filling it ever. It's that mad situation, I can't live with him (he's made that impossible); I can't live without him

You can.
First step, think of the reasons you split. He must have done some pretty bad stuff (didn't he)... think about that and how your kids don't need that in the background.

Force yourself to meet someone else. Once you get your ego back in shape, a few compliments here and a few advances there, you begin to regain your worth. It's superficial stuff at first, but do it. It's called moving on.

Then... the void starts and you want some more of that because humans need it. Slowly but surely this is how you rebuild. The void gets smaller and smaller, you don't even realise it.

You must make the effort to go out, whilst your are 'mixing' you'll see that you haven't thought about him for the last hour... that is the road to recovery. But you have to do it, bit by bit, you regain your equilibrium.

Saying 'come to terms with it' is easier said than done. But put yourself on auto-pilot and go out and mix. All it takes is a bit of effort, even tho you don't want to. Do it. You'll suddenly wake up one morning and he won't be in your head... and you'll know then that you are climbing out. Good luck.

Thank you Kally x