I fell deeply in love with a flatmate. I loved him so much, and got on so well with him, I never wanted anything further to happen between us, as it would ruin the great relationship we had, IYSWIM. I'd just come out of a really crappy relationship and I'd been to a really dark place.
My colleagues were following the story with interest, as they knew how much I liked him and how bad my last boyfriend had been.
One drunken night out, we stumbled back home with some friends. We were messing around, and he had a duvet wrapped around him on the sofa. He asked me to tuck him in, which I did. As I did, he looked really deeply into my eyes and my heart stopped for a second.
The next morning, I was sat on his bed chatting, which we usually did. He began stroking my Achilles heel, of all places. One thing led extremely quickly to another. But after that, we weren't sure what to do. He really didn't know whether to start a relationship, as he felt as I did about our friendship. I was upset, as I felt I'd been weak and ruined things.
He asked for a night to think about things. I slept on the sofa, as I was feeling wierd about sleeping in my own bed (another story all together). He got up for work and woke me as he passed by. I mumbled hi, and prepared to watch him walk out the door and for life to carry on as it was. I was so disappointed in myself.
He stopped before the door, turned around, leaned down to me and kissed me gently on the lips. "I'll see you later" he said.
And dear reader, I married him All that was seven years ago. We have a wee baby daughter now. OK, it's not the most Mills and Boon thing that could happen. But in our fucked up world at the time, it was incredibly romantic.