suspious or stupid

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have been following the am i paranoid thread with great sadness.
my hubby came home from a nite out with the lads on friday with a very strange yellow stain all around the collar of his white tshirt.whatever it was rubbed off all over our pillows leaving a large yellow stain.
all i can come up with is its fake sun tan lotion or makeup,he is accussing me of being paranoid and cant explain how he got it between going out at 8 in the evening and coming home at 2 in the morning,its eating me up sorry have been so low taking ads at the moment too.
i was really low even contemplating suicide last week felt so bad and he still went out after i told him to play in a band.
apologies for off loading just feel so miserable about my life .am seeing a acounsellor and my gp has refreed me for help but get so unhappy about all this odd behaviour of his

Could he have dropped food on his collar? Mustard or mayonnaise?

no its all around the back and inside and a must have been all over the back of his head and he only drank not ate

are you sure he didn't have a kebab on the way home, they are bastards for staining (chilli sauce)

I don't think he would have had false tan over the back of his head either, unless he took a nap on some bimbo's legs or summink

could he have been leaning against a wall with dodgy paint that rubbed off on him?

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I honestly wouldn't have thought it would be a fake tan or makeup, especially as you say there was so much of it. He would literally have to be soaking in it to stain his shirt and get it on the pillows.

Do you normally get on well together or have you been feeling this way for a long time ?

He's gone and put fake tan on for his night out I bet

Go look in his wash bag to see if he has some fake bake in there.

we have done relate they told him to grow up at the last session.i am very paranoid as he has suddenly started going out all the time ,hiding phone and he has a pretty shit porn addiction

As others have already said it doesn't seem to be anything that has come from someone else.
If it was make-up or fake tan it's unlikely it would be where you found it, unless he was the one wearing it.

WRT hiding his phone and the porn addiction how has this affected you? Have you discussed it with him?

If you are feeling suicidal I really would recommend that you find someone to talk to. Obviously your suspicions can't help matters but if you have suicidal thoughts then you really should try to get me support and help.