I?m SO cross with D at the moment, thought perhaps venting my frustrations and annoyance on here might help let off some steam and calm me down?????
So???
He?s been out nearly every night this week. Not a massive problem. He doesn?t go out in the week that much so now and then it?s cool(ish). Monday he had some computer training thing at work and went for a drink after so got in late. Tuesday he had a beer after work with some of his best mates locally. Wednesday some more computer training and a few beers after. Thursday he came home, sat on the computer until dinner then fell asleep on the sofa. Friday he worked late and ?. , yes you got it ? went for a few beers after work. Meanwhile, cut to on a Friday night at home and I?m down to my last glass of wine, oh shit. Text him, about10ish to say that the wine had run out he texts back he?ll be home soon with more wine; he gets in at midnight.
Okay no massive deal, bit of a shitty week, for me. I?m a bit pissed off, and frankly a bit envious that it?s ok for him to call and say ?I?ll be home late tonight?, that?s a luxury I?ll never have again as it?s me that has the car and picks up DD, anyway?..
Now to today??..
He gets up and informs me he?s going for a haircut, which he goes into central London for. He leaves here about 10.30ish.
I get a mate over and we have a great time with DD doing hand painting and playing.
My mate has to e somewhere at 3 and we decide that I?ll go with her, help out and I have a few things of my own I can be doing. So ring D at about 1 and ASK him will he be back by 2.30/2.45 as I want to go out and any later will be too late. Oh yes not a problem he?s leaving in about half an hour.
So 2.30 comes and goes, no sign. I get him on his phone ?.he?s just leaving now.
Agggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I went mad. The last straw and all that. Selfish, selfish, selfish.
Just had enough.
Oh and as he leaves this morning he says ?shall I get you something nice??
He?s back now, did he get me something nice, did he hell. Did he buy himself loads of new vinyl and god knows what, of course he did.
He?s so selfish, so thoughtless, it?s all about him, all the time.
Yes he?s sorry, yes he?s trying to be all nice now but he can fuck off.
Right, so am I calmer? Hmmmmmmm, NO I?m not.
I want to go into the garden and scream until it hurts!