Its my own fault and I accept total responsibility, because I did marry dh after all, but sometimes I widh dh had more money. Already have dd but now shes 3 I 'm thinking about having another one. This is impossible because of our financial situation, dh earns a decent wage but has debts. Hes been in debt ever since I first met him though when I married him I didnt realise how stricken he really was. 5 years later and although I only work part time so I can spend time with dd I still have to bail him out financially even though he works fulltime and earns at least 20K more than me. I get sick of all my friends being able to have 2 or 3 children simply because they married a man can afford to support a family. I just wish I could turn back the clock sometimes and marry someone else especially as most of my old boyfriends are now successful in their careers. I cant imagine what it would be like to be married to someone who could afford to take me out for a meal and more importantly could afford for us to have a large family with. I know I sound materialistic but it really grinds me down and knowing I made the choice to marry someone so riddled with debt. At the time I didnt think it would have such a huge impact on my life, youthful naivety!