Hello, I have never posted anything before, but I feel like I am going mad and need someone to help me. I have been married to the most wonderful man for 5 years and we have been together for 9 years. We started out pretty normally but it soon became apparent that he just wasn't into sex that much. I went ahead and married him hoping this would change, but it hasn't. He is the most loving, caring man and we have a wonderful life together but the lack of passion and intimacy is killing me. I have tried talking to him so many times, and I have even had an affair which I ended as I felt guilty (he didn't find out), that was 3 yrs ago. A couple of weeks ago I started something with someone else and I can't stop thinking that the feelings I had with him are what is right and natural. I told my husband two nights ago that I am leaving (I can't cope with the deception of an affair) but he is begging me to stay and saying we can change things. The problem is, I don't feel attracted to him in that way anymore, can this return? I have looked upon him as my best friend for so many years. I'm only 32 and I can count the amount of times we've slept together on both hands, we don't have children. As I say though he is THE most wonderful man and I am scared that I will regret my decision. Please help me.