I have been married for 15 years and find my husband is probably one of the most boring, unsociable people I have ever met.
In all honesty, I only got with him in the first place because I didn't want to be a single parent any longer and he owned a house and had money, it seemed a good way of getting a better life for us.
I have been kidding myself for 15 years that I love him and I just don't. He doesn't talk, doesn't communicate or anything. If some drama is happening he just stares at the floor and says he's worried worried, yes, and? he never helps me solve it though.
He cries if I try and get through to him, says he's scared of losing me yet still refuses to talk. He's boring, never wants to go for a night out, if I try and have a laugh with him he either smiles and ignores me or turns the TV up. He books the same holiday every year, a fortnight on the canals where he basically sits reading books about canals for two fucking weeks whilst I'm sat there bored to dead. We keep saying we're going to go abroad but he always makes some excuse and books the canals again.
On christmas day he sat there with a miserable face watching bloody cartoons or old films.
He's so unsociable he's actually rude. If we go down to see my family he doesn't talk, just stands there staring at the floor smiling. Avoiding all eye contact. He's actually been known to leave someones house and stand outside in the front garden waiting for me to leave, how bloody rude is that?
He's not depressed, he's been like this for 15 years. I have even wondered if he has some form of autism sometimes because there is no communication there at all. The only time he seems happy is when everyone leaves him alone to read his stupid bloody books or if he's slagging someone off.
I actually welcome the day I have the opportunity to have an affair because I know I'd jump on it without second thought.
I know I should just leave but I have no money and nowhere to go. Apart from that he'd crack up completely, the mere mention of us splitting up has him in tears.
What the hell do I do.