relationship has been rocky for ages - broke up 3 years ago, then got back together and 2 weeks later got up the duff. has never been right, would have split up again if not for pregnancy. fundamentally unsuited. have been in counselling for months - we both have our issues, but i find his depressing to live with - he needs constant patting on the back and eternal gratitude for basically, living like a normal person. he wants to be worshipped. i am not a worshipping kind of person. he thinks i'm cold... i'm not, i just don't see the need to be grateful for him contributing to the housework and childcare etc., etc - anyway, that's by the by, the upshot is we are on the brink of breaking up. i want to move out with our son before things get too acrimonious, so that we can have a civil relationship for his sake. i want to live nearby so we can take care of him jointly.
but i am so worried about how it will affect him to grow up with separated parents, and his happiness is so important to me, i don't know if perhaps i should stay in a loveless relationship for his sake. i would sacrifice my own happiness for his, but then i would feel guilty at not being able to give him the model of a healthy loving relationship, which he should have.
i'm not afraid of being alone, it's the idea of all the extended famlly stuff that comes down the line with new other halves and potentially half siblings, just makes me cry. i feel like i'm really letting him down.
i really need some advice.