I have been with dp for 5 years and we have had a very turbolent relationship to say the least. He was a very heavy drinker and went out and stayed out alot of weekends and this put a strain on us. He doesnt drink so much lately and I have no cmplaints in that dept.I cant bring myself to kiss him or even hug him. We dont argue and its a weird feeling. I dont look forward to him coming home. I kind of talk to him through our 2 sons.He is always asking for sex and I am just not interested at all. I dont enjoy it.When he rings me I have nothing to say to him and sometimes just dont want him to come home afer work. He is not the easiest person to talk to. Im happiest when im on my own with the boys. Id be happy if he said he has to work away - so confused. Feel like im wasting my life