I posted on here a lot last year about my messy split from XP. It was preceded by a turbulent year involving a spell of deep depression on his part followed by a high. "Bipolar" was bandied around at the time, but never investigated. I spent six months half-furious with him (he went out with a bang, sleeping with three different women in a matter of weeks) and half-trying to persuade him to wake up and see that something was wrong and that he had a family and a lovely life worth sorting himself out for.
He was having none of it. So I focused on me, had some therapy, and have more recently been able to feel forgiving towards him and even become good friends again.
XP is much more his sensitive, lovable old self at the moment - not "high". He has been over this morning, telling me tearfully that he wants his life with me and DS back and is prepared to do all he can to make that happen.
In my heart, I'm sold: I love(d) "old" XP and that life too. When we get along, we get along brilliantly. XP can be tender, caring, thoughtful, a great listener, gentle, warm, blah, blah. BUT my head is reminding me that he did some incredibly hurtful and out-of-character stuff last year, I don't know that it won't happen again (this is obviously on the agenda to be discussed), and it's tough being sat in the fall-out of XP's extreme moods, especially his highs.
I have suggested we take things very slowly: he stays in his flat, we get some outside help and work through a relationship rebuilding programme, and see where it takes us. For me, it is not an option to put DS through the hell of it all going wrong again, so I'm thinking very baby steps. Is it worth it? If it is, any advice?
TIA