Update please be kind

[TheOpalFox]

I had therapy this morning. I feel like I’m gonna put in so much hard work to try and deal with the ex leaving me
I’m also on a higher antdidepressent
it’s killing me he’s left but I’m trying to put in the hard work I really am.
i hate feeling this level of pain and hurt I really do :(
just to let you all know I’m trying xx

Posters will be more inclined to reply kindly if you now just keep posting on this thread and don't make multiple others

Good luck with it all ☘️

So glad to read this ☺️ you have made a start and it won't be easy but you will get there! Rooting for you 💐

Because I was brought up in a household of neglect, an emotionally absent and cruel mother and an alcoholic father who favoured his addiction and didn’t or couldn’t care. I therefore craved for attention and recognition from people who didn’t care and sought out that dynamic and felt comfortable playing it out again and again even though it destroyed me. It was what I was used to. I still hoped that if I could just get the boyfriend to love me then it would heal all the past. It was an impossible situation as I always chose men who were primed to hurt and rejected me. I had an active role in my pain. A good counsellor helped me recognise how I routinely passed on decent men as they didn’t fit the profile of an abuser. In short, I did it to myself and that was bloody hard to accept but over time I managed to change and stop repeating this pattern. You’re at stage one, recognising that these are unfortunate active choices to do with your past. Healthy people don’t do this. They would run a mile.