The love of my life is back and I feel so sad.

[Eve34]

I don't expect a response to this, I just need to get it out of my system.
The love of my life was my best friend for years, we hooked up for a short time, but it wasn't to be. We stayed good friends, we both married other people, life moved on and we lost touch.
My marriage didn't work out, I met DP and we ticked along, since having DS things have been difficult and I have wanted to walk out a few times, I have put this down to PND. Hand on heart things are not the same.
Love of my life has just got in touch, he and his wife are no longer together. I know we can not be together, I need to work harder on the relationship I have and I also know I need to keep him at arms length.
I just feel so sad.

i took the love of my life back after leaving me pregnant. i did it for the wrong reasons. i was unhappy and lonely and i took an awful lot i shouldnt have because of it. if you were happy in your relationship would you still want this man? how long has it been - do you even know him anymore or does he symbolise a time in your life when you had less responsibility and the future was exciting. do you want to look at your husband and tell him you are leaving for someone else. sorry to be harsh but i devastated people with my actions in the name of the love of my life and it wasnt worth it. go to relate, work on yourself and if in a couple of years your marriage is not working then leave your husband. for yourself, not for a man you dont really know any more.
i know you know all this - sometimes it just helps to have a reminder.

ahh love i think that i know what you mean.

paths go along a funny way dont they.

if its not to be then maintain a distance.
so many "what ifs" though arent there.

Be brave, chin up and crack on girl.
x

Bless you thank you. He is still the same man from our care free days yes, it takes me back to easier times. DP and I are facing uncertain times and I know we can work through this, I am determain too. I am heart broken all over again, but thank you for taking the time to response it means a lot to me to know I am not alone.

never alone while we are here chuck xx

same from me. it is incredibly hard and i couldnt and didnt do it. xx