So Iv been with my boyfriend for 5 years. I have 2 kids from a previous relationship and I’m 5 months pregnant to my boyfriend’s first baby.
anyway cut a long story short - I have trauma from my previous relationship- narcissist and just all round awful.
my boyfriend knows all this and Iv always told him to never lie to me. Anyway he has told silly lies and they really trigger me. I try and get over them and forgive but I dunno if I’m just being a mug
recent one - his ex who cheated on him 20 years ago followed him on insta - he accepted and followed her back.
previous incidents -
he was on his works do, told me he was coming home shortly. I waited up and he ended up back at some lads with whoever and I later found selfies on his phone of him and some girl and lipstick on the side of his top. He admitted to hugging her and they was just being friendly in the pub. Again triggered me as I instantly think worse
when I first started seeing him before we was official, he was speaking to 2 other girls. When we started properly I told him to let me know if they ever reached out to him. He didn’t and I found out by snooping. Yeah it’s wrong but I was seriously cheated on by my ex and he knows this. So I instantly think he’s going to cheat at the slightest of things.
last year he went to Dubai with the lads and half of them always cheat on their Mrs. Anyway weeks after one of the girlfriends messaged me to say that her fella had cheated on her and had brought girls back to the villa - I confronted my boyfriend and he said he didn’t tell me some of the lads had brought girls back as he knew I’d doubt him and worry. ( he was on the phone to me and texting when the said girls were there as I time checked this)
I know I probs come across a bit full on but why do I not trust him? Why do I doubt him. Am I being a mug? Should I run a mile.
i just think is he going to keep the little lies until I finally get rid? Like am I allowing this