I've posted about my relationship before and I was in a terrible state mentally at that stage. I have since completed my treatment for breast cancer, increased my antidepressants and engaged in individual counselling.
I am now at the stage where I am getting a house ready to move into and getting serious anxiety about it all. I obsess over whether this is the right decision for me and my children and also about hurting DH. I know he is already hurting.
For context it's been challenging to speak to him about the process. When I try to discuss things I get met with "no not talking" or "there's nothing to talk about" or silence. I did manage to have a chat with him on Sunday and although it was mostly me speaking I think he listened. He did tell me just to get on with my silly plan and that he thinks I'm being selfish. But since treatment finished he's not once asked how I am doing, I disclosed some quite difficult things about my mental health and he hasn't checked on how am doing since either. Completely avoidant. But I do love him and care deeply, is that enough though when I am exhausted by the emotional depravation?
Confused as ever.