I've been single over four years now after splitting with my child's dad. I've dated but not really come close to a relationship. I love having someone, I'm the kind of person who loves company. So much so that after my ex left I started staying over at my mum's at weekends for adult company and because the house felt lonely especially after my child went to bed.
I met someone at the beginning of the year who iwas in the army based four hours away but he drove back up North to near me most weekends as he has a flat there. We didn't get to spend a lot of time together with me having a child and him only coming back on a Friday and leaving on a Sunday afternoon. However I was really enjoying having a romantic connection again, cuddling in bed, afternoons/ evenings spent doing things and the obvious physical benefits. He became part of my Saturday routine.
He suddenly ended it the other week, saying he thought we'd have a deeper connection by now. I'm just really missing him and I'm so gutted. Especially as I felt we were getting closer. On the last day I say him I did say something about not liking if he got deployed and I can't help but think that might have played on his mind as a previous girlfriend cheated on him whilst deployed and another finished with him when deployed. He says it didn't.
My mum thinks I'd of struggled with how little I'd ever of got to see him and if he got deployed as I'm quite an anxious attachment type.
I feel like I'll be single forever. Has anyone got any advice about how to move on and cheer up or experienced something similar?