Caught my DP masterbating whilst our one year old DS was in bed next to him , he was watching porn. He knows porn is a hard no from me , I know some people don't mind it , but for me for multiple reasons it's a hard no and I've made this clear as I've caught him before . I've no idea if it was OF or just porn , but either way for me it's a hard no. And this genuinely feels like a complete disrespect of my trust. We have 2 DS and have regular sex , not every night but at least twice a week although he was to tired last night or so he said. I'll also add not like it matters I look exactly the same as before the kids. I'm also disgusted that my DS was asleep next to him , it was in our bed. I genuinely feel like I've lost all trust in him now as he knows my feelings on this. There have been things in the past we've been together 9 years , no cheating or messaging other women (that I know ). But things like this , or looking at other women , temper (but he's on antidepressants now which have helped this). I thought we where in a good place but now feel like I'm over it, I'm not even angry I'm calm. I just feel like he's broken my trust.