I want to leave

[Firekitten2]

I need to leave this relationship, but I’m also so very scared of being on my own and having to deal with the consequences of leaving. I’ve made some first steps but I’m getting more and more anxious now and I think that I won’t go through with it.
I’ve been a complete idiot and did so much that I shouldn’t have and I’m terrified of how he will react.
I did post here a few years ago but then left because I was too stupid to really heed any advice.

If you can give me some encouragement I’d really appreciate it because I want to go for it but now that I have the chance I am feeling like a deer in headlights and I hate myself for it.

What actually is it about being on your own that scares you? Do you work? Do you have children? Is it the actual telling your partner that you're leaving? Are you afraid of his reaction?

Realistically, there will probably be a difficult period in the short term when you leave. But if you're very unhappy in your current situation, it will worth getting through that difficult time to get to a better place. Without knowing your circumstances, it's difficult to say what the logistics of leaving would look like - your finances, your arrangements for any children, housing etc will all have to be thought through.

Do you have support from family and friends? They could help you sit down and make a plan.

You can do this OP, you just need to take that first step safely. You will be ok on your own, you just need time to adjust to a new reality and take it a day at a time.