So recently me and my long time friend of ten years are considering a relationship...the thing is we've never met in person (but we will be soon unrelated to this decision) and while that's not the problem I'm still very nervous.
I really like him, and it's been a while since I was in a relationship but last one was also a friend of mine someone I really trusted but the moment I became vulnerable with them (it was at a time when a very close family member of mine passed away) they basically stepped all over it and hurt me by saying horrible things.
I'm long over them but this made me realize I have a fear that perhaps he won't like me the moment I become a version of myself that's raw and vulnerable. Even though I know he would never do something like that I'm scared still.
He's communicating so well, asking me if I had a problem if it was long distance since he'll be going to school next year in another state and even recommended we write down any questions we have for one another when we do meet.
He's extremely consistent, considerate, smart and always supports me and my dreams and holds me accountable.
I don't want to lose him if either even though I do like him. Any advice on how to get over my hurdle of being scared of showing my vulnerability?