I left a long emotionally abusive relationship over a year ago. I started online dating a bit too quickly for a confidence boost I guess but nothing serious until 3 months ago I met someone who I just click with. I've never had someone treat me so well, be so consistent and just seems to think the world of me. The first few months have been great but I think I am starting to self sabotage as I am scared about things getting a bit more serious and feeling it's too good to be true. He wants me to meet his friends and while I really want to I feel like it's making me anxious and wanting to run away. We are hoping to book a few days away in summer too and I'm just scared to even commit to that. Even though it's something I really want!
I'm 35 and no kids and we seem to want the same things. I really want to have kids in the future and I'm scared I'm going to F this up and push away a great guy because of my ex. I am trying to be honest with him and he knows about my last relationship. I have been having therapy too to try and get over the abuse. Has anyone felt similar and managed to find a way not to mess things up?