I left my partner 3 months ago and we kept talking daily it’s been hard sometimes we want to sort it out that we don’t, he was hard on me at times and I felt I suffered a lot of mental abuse for walking out
we met today so I could pick up my things I thought I would feel ok because it’s been awhile but instead I feel really emotional
I want him back
but I don’t think he wants to
he did say would I be interested in still meeting him and going on dates and asked me to go for a meal this weekend
and I said yes
but I’m scared he’s going to change his mind
and I feel all upset like I want to move back in and be together again I would do anything to go back in time
how can I win him back I know stupid question
i see my mistakes now and the grass wasn’t greener
i just can’t face moving on
i dont want to
ive been very suicidal and been self harming a lot as I can’t deal with this