I let him back in. It was going better. Not great. He thinks hes doing really well but his words and actions are always not matching up. Midweek i had a email come through that rattled me emotionally and mentally and sent me spiralling - he said he would call me after work to check i was ok - he didnt - he decided to go to the pub instead and when I called him he got really angry and defensive - when I say I was rattled i was in a bad way i needed some support and just be listened too bounce ideas back and forth etc anyway he left the pub and we had an argument on the phone, he was as always very defensive and abrupt speaking over me and generally not listening i said I needed someone to talk too and I needed support to which his reply was "go and get it from someone else and leave me alone" which ive done - I hung up and its now 3 days after this incident and hes not contacted me. At first I was upset, how can he know how low and mentally not ok I am and not contact me - but now I feel relieved hes gone but im worried im going to become down again because I just cant
Its been 2 years and it that time hes walked out on me 3 times and this was my last time and I bloody regret it now... any tips on staying strong and knowing this isnt alright ill take them all!