My mum would go mad if i cried or was depressed and when i got bullied she was angry she had to tell them on the phone to leave me alone because she was more bothered about decorating the house.
About ten years ago i was telling a friend about what i was going through and my sister came in and dragged me down, ended up scratching my face and no one cared!! And i had to be ok with her because she was getting married. My mam has always loved my sister who is the daughter to my mams now partner. My mam even said to my auntie isn't it nice when our partners have grandchildren of their own blood.
Since then I've always been told I'm moody or I'm feeling sorry for myself. But I've been through abuse from ex partners as well. I am a happy witty person on the outside but god forbid if i feel down they make me feel like I'm a burden. My mam keeps goving me dirty looks if I'm not cheery.
I wrote a note last weekend to say I'm unable to cope and goodbye. but i told my work friends i was too down to come out and they said i should get myself out. I'm glad I did but i need to get away from them. Should i feel bad for not going and not taking my daughter to see them all. My siblings have children too.