Please please help me im in so much pain
My husband who I've been married to for 5 years has been messaging, purchasing content and planning to meet up with Escorts for 3 years. It started while I was heavily pregnant with my daughter, he frequently messaged after we'd been on dates, the day after our anniversary, the day before our sons birthday. It was his birthday Saturday and while I planned a lovely meal for him with all our loved ones as a surprise, he was sat in the same room as me messaging an escort asking to meet up in 20 minutes.
He tried to tell me when I found the messages he wanted a massage, her profile was on an escort site, had feedback on regarding the sexual nature of the massage and all her information on there made it clear it was a massage with a happy ending. I uncovered more, he'd paid for pictures from private galleries, messaged various escorts to arrange a meeting. All these women local.
He's begging me to give him another chance, making huge promises to be a better man, he says he did it because I was disconnected and he wanted connection.
I can admit while pregnant I wasn't always pleasant, I found it very hard not to be moody, I was sick and caring for our other 3 kids at the same time, ive also suffered depression afterwards.. but physically he's never been without, in fact we went to therapy (my idea because I wanted to be a better wife) to address healing from me struggling in my pregnancy but also because he wasn't meeting my needs in that department.
We did the therapy, I went on medication to try and help with my moods, I tried to fix my wrongs and all that time he was doing this
I don't feel ready to let him go, my heart hurts when I tell him to leave and he begins too then I cave in