I've used AI to shorten this as it was way too long.
When I started university I was very naive, with no relationship or sexual experience. I fell deeply in love with an older student who ghosted me after a brief situationship. Because it was a small campus, we saw each other constantly and he would walk past me without acknowledgement. I never knew why, and it devastated me.
Twenty years later, out of the blue, he contacted me saying he’d been thinking about me. I told him I was happily married with children, but was open to being friendly and forgiving the past. I assumed he might be interesting to reconnect with.
However, he showed no real interest in my life, was evasive about his own, and focused instead on songs and poems he’d written about me. He then began making sexual comments about our past and suggested meeting in a hotel. When I shut this down, he replied with "Shut up and show me your c." I told him if he wanted to see a c he should look in a mirror, and that he had nothing at all that would tempt me to go near him. He then said, "You earn because you get sp*ed in a few times, I earn writing which is my passion." I don't know what this means, I have a good job and I'm not a sex worker.
There were a few more horrible messages which are too disgusting to type out, and I have obviously blocked him (and know I should have done sooner) but I feel quite shaken and confused by the experience. I'm not sure what I'm after by posting, it's just such a strange situation and has knocked me quite a bit. I’ve now blocked him, but the experience has left me shaken and confused. My husband knows and agrees the man is awful, but I don't know why I'm feeling sad after barely thinking about him in years.