Starting over at 36

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Hi all. So my conditional order came through today a day after my 36th birthday having been married fkr one year at the time of separation. Its been neary a year since my separation but STBX has been in and out of my life over this whole time period trying to get back together then not. This was my only relationship in lofe and my ex is my blueprint for relationships but it has become so difficult. He has created a high conflict divorce but i love him so much and ma having real trouble grieving and letting go.

Part kf me is scared thst all my future birrhdays will be forever ruined and tainted because the conditional order came through today but also because my ex deliverately csme back yesterday and harrased me to go to dinner with him then said that at my birthday meal that this was the last time he would ever see me though he did say once my training is done in 2 years time we can reassess and grt back together at that time. In my grief im considering it. But does anyone else have any other experience of moving on and starting over at 36 without kids. I desperately want a happy life and children but facing the loss ofnmy marriage home and best friend and finances has been extraordinarily difficukt snd im just barely coping
Does anyone have any tips?

op you’ve posted about this evil little shit of a man many times. I don’t know what else you expect to hear from us that’s any different from before. No one is going to tell you to wait for him . He’s horrendous and if you stand any chance of being happy in life you need to cut him out of it completely

This time next year you’ll feel completely different. I can almost guarantee it. You need to stay away from the ex husband though

Get some therapy if you are struggling to grieve and let go. I'm not really sure what else to tell you. If you see this as healthy, you have a long road ahead of you.

A long term DP ended our relationship when I was 35 which was awful as lots of my friendships had revolved around his friends and I felt like I was starting again with friends as well as wanting a family. The positive news is that I made new friends, had one of the best years of my life having fun with those friends and then settled down with a lovely guy and have DC. Block him and I am sure by next year you will feel totally different