My partner and I had an amazing relationship, together only 18 months but we were so good together, quite literally best friends. He had some problems with his mental health and leant on me very heavily for support in all sorts of ways, with work, emotionally, for his son, his mum, he had health problems. I did everything for him, neglecting my own life and needs for him because I love him. We’d row, and by row, I mean I would try to work through our problems, never raising my voice or being juvenile, I really tried for us whereas he would fight against me. He would shout, scream, act irrationally, even hurt himself. I really tried for this man, communicating in the best way possible, but it was never enough.
He proposed in November, I was so so happy with that because I thought I was getting through to him in helping him. However the day after new years, he left me completely out the blue. There was no warning, no talk in the weeks leading up to it about any issues he may have had, just got up, said he was never coming back and left. I was completely distraught, and I have really worked on myself these past few weeks. But I am still so upset, it’s only been 3 weeks and I just can’t believe it. He has been so cold, like he just doesn’t care. I am 31 and have kids from a previous (abusive) relationship. I have the capacity to rationalise situations, and I am comfortable being present in my emotions which I try to exercise when they come along me, but I just need a hand hold really. I am just still so shocked and hurt. I have no idea why he did this. I feel like I will never be enough.