Craving that 'first kiss'

[Hotat53]

Sorry a bit whiny and self indulgent but it would help to not feel like I'm the only one who feels this way.
I'm in a happy marriage been with partner 22years, we have a good sex life and I love him and won't contemplate an affair BUT...

I really, really miss that feeling you get when you're first with someone. To the point now where im thinking about it most days. I burst into tears watching a crime drama just before Christmas as the two main characters looked into each others eyes and had their first kiss, my body actually ached for this. I've tried to talk to DH about this but he just doesn't get it and says that things are better the more you know someone. I've pushed him to talk again and he started to get a bit worried that I was trying to tell him that I had met somebody else (his previous partner cheated on him and he's still sore) so I've had to drop the subject.
Ive tried to recreate the 'first time' feeling in the bedroom but it doesn't seem to work as we both know what each other does and doesn't like and we know the short cuts. I've even tried getting him to participate in a bit of role play. We met up in town after shopping separately and went for a drink and I tried to talk to him as if we had just met but we ended up just laughing.

Please tell me im not alone or that it's just my age (54) and that it will pass

I'm not surprised your DH is feeling uneasy and not getting on board with this. This kind of chat would make me feel unsafe in my relationship.

I think you really need to think about what you want here OP. Just remember that it never stays as a first kiss. Plus the dating pool is pretty dire in your 50s.

In your husbands shoes I’d be really worried if my partner started talking about wanting “firsts” again, especially if they brought it up a few times over a period of time, I’d be worried they were looking for that thrill elsewhere.

Im sure it will pass - perhaps it’s just your mind making sense of the fact that you won’t have that again, as you’re happily married? Could you perhaps find some books or some films to give you that feeling? Honestly I think you’re definitely romanticising that - most first kisses that aren’t scripted on tv are awkward clashes of teeth, turning the same way or realising someone kisses terribly!!

🤣 yes your right - I guess you forgot the bad experiences

You can reframe your thinking.

or you could try role play but seriously it’s never as good as when it is with someone who loves you and you love in return

I know of a couple (married 20 years) who did the whole pretending to meet for the first time thing. He introduced himself with a double-barrelled name (his real name is Jim), said he is a property developer (they still rent) and has an 8 inch penis (it's 3 on a good day)