End of marriage

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I'm struggling to cope with the situation I'm in.

Its my decision to end the marriage after years of it going south and not getting on.
He's an amazing dad to our two kids (10 & 5) and but I'm so unhappy. Nothing major we have just grown apart.
He's devastated and wants to stay together.

Tried everything, councilling, anti-depressants etc but I'm just so low I can't do it anymore :-(

I can't sleep, don't want to wake up, scared at leaving but terrified of staying and getting into a deep depression.

Anyone been through this and can offer help or support would be appreciated.

Your husband sounds very supportive and concerned. I would stick with him, and have a chat with him about what makes you unhappy, you must confront the issues of your depression before you can move forward.

You tried everything and sometimes a relationship just ran its course. I left a long-term relationship with an amazing, kind, respectful man six years ago. Similarly, we tried everything to resolve things, he was devastated and I also felt completely trapped and depressed.
Years later, I have no regrets. No, I haven't met "the one" in that time but it really doesn't matter because I would rather be alone for the rest of my life than in a relationship that simply doesn't work anymore.

Agree with pp, you need to sort your MH out before you take such a big step.

I agree with this statement. I know someone who could have written your post, slightly different details. She has left and it’s as if a grenade has gone off within the family. I affects everyone and everything, not necessarily in a good way.
Please think carefully and get some more professional help.

I was in this exact situation 12 years ago. I eventually left (after 2 years of misery) and I was much happier, not straight away, but it I felt like I'd been set free. My (now ex) husband was also devastated and tried to get me to stay but I held firm (which was bloody hard). FWIW he now realises our relationship has run its course, I just realised it a long time before he did. Staying where you feel you don't belong, in a life you feel isn't right for you, is hard. It WILL lead to depression and sleeplessness etc.

We parted ways while we still got on (nobody understands this, there seems to be a notion that you have to fight and fight, til you despise each other, THEN it's socially acceptable to split 🙄). Our split was as amicable as it could be (don't get me wrong, it's still one of the hardest things I've ever done) and after the initial tough period, we got on - and still get on - great, and co parent brilliantly.

If you know in your heart of hearts it's no longer right then have faith that there is a great life on the other side, waiting for you 💖