I’m so heartbroken my world has fallen apart
Me and my partner have a 7 month old baby, this weekend my partner has been acting a bit weird and sleeping in late and not getting the baby in the morning as was our new agreement (I do all the nights because he doesn’t hear him apparently). But I’ve got up with him and had to wake my partner up as he’s been up so late. I didn’t question it just whatever.
Anyway this morning I didn’t set an alarm because my partner was to get up first thing and get the baby and sort breakfast for my eldest, giving me an hour in bed before I get up and do the school run.he did not come and get the baby and when I went down to see what had happened his phone was lighting up next to him with Snapchat notifications. My heart dropped.
The last and only time he had Snapchat was when he was sending dirty messages to random girls he found on chat sites and tinder when we were going through a really rough patch 3 years ago. I knew exactly what it was so I opened it up and saw he had intact been messaging 3 girls since Friday night, filthy messages and describing what he would do to her. I had to check because he does lie.
So he’s done it again, I’ve told him to get out. My baby is only 7 months old and I don’t know what to do, I left my home to come live with him. I can’t get anywhere else I’m on maternity and not due back until April and this month onward I will have no income.
I can’t talk to my friends they told me not to give him a second chance when he did it the first time. I’m such an idiot. Things have been tough since we had a baby, we have a very difficult baby. But things were good recently when he did this, who knows if it’s been longer I don’t trust anything he has to say.
I don’t want to bring up another child in a broken him, my first son isn’t his. It was tough and hard then I got to a good place and met him and gave up my independence for a man who does this again and again. What have I done? How do I explain this to my eldest? I feel so lost and heartbroken.
It’s almost Christmas I don’t know what to do, I hate him. But I’m so stuck in this situation. Does anyone have any advice or positive stories because I feel so desperate. I’ve just got my baby down for a nap and I’m so upset.
i know it’s easy to say just leave, but I genuinely have no where to go right now. I’m so heartbroken for my children. How do I deal with the guilt of another broken home….