I was in a 3 year on off relationship (I’d tried to leave many times but I always crumbled and went back) with a man with strong narcissistic qualities, until this last time round I found out I fell pregnant. He instantly cut me off, ignored me, fucked off on holiday for 10 days- not a single check in. Once he was back i reached out, got ignored then decided I’d have the baby alone. I then found out that id suffered a missed miscarriage at a private scan which broke me. Funnily enough that was the one time he replied, making up excuses to why he’d been ignoring me, making everything about himself. He told me he’d take me to the hospital appt for a rescan and discussion of options of how to manage the miscarriage then the evening before he cancelled (but offered his kids mum to take me wtf??) and I had to go alone. Then he promptly rang me up when I was driving home from the hospital emotionally shattered having ago at me for picking the surgical route and not the pills as, “I don’t understand why you didn’t pick the pills when you were prepared to go through 9 months of pregnancy pain,” “if you want a baby just adopt one,” “yes you’ve gone through it alone but you could of ended it at the start.” He refused to take a single day off work to take me for surgery and be with me for 24 hours after.
I guess in my mind I can’t comprehend this behaviour as I would have done anything for this man, stupidly I guess. I wanted the baby and I’ve been grieving and faced everything alone. Will he ever look back and feel bad about this? It’s been a week since my surgery and although I blocked him after he was so cruel he has made no effort to find out if I’m okay or his forbid, apologise. I’ll just never understand how anyone can have no empathy and be so cruel. We live in the same town very close. I dread driving past or bumping into him when he can carry on his life happily and I am so broken.