I'm think I'm having a meltdown.. ive been suffering with some health problems leading to chromic pain since earlier on this year.
I've mostly just got on with it but this weekend ivebkust lost it and can't seem to pull myself together.
My husband isn't very easy to live with and over the past few years its become increasingly more difficult. I can't do or say anything right. About 18 months ago he started complaining about my cooking and eventually after much arguing he now cooks and does shopping.
Basically nothing is ever good enough and gradually over time i have lost the will try because he is just unpleasable.. i clean the house and he'll find the one thing i didnt do.. ive become increasingly unhappy because he comes homean instead of being pleased to to see me he always has somthing to complain about that ive done. I always ask how his day was but he never asks me because he says all i do is moan. He also wamts to be left alone for a while which is pretty impractical as its time to start a meal when we are home I find it rude and inconsiderate. More and more he just sits in his phone .. if i suggest talking he says hes watching something..
I'm also second guessing myself so here's an example our fire needed emptying so i didnt light a fire because last time he got annoyed about it. I explained why i hadn't tonight and he got annoyed and said i should have just kept my mouth shut.
Emotionally he very hard to communicate Basically we can't talk about anything as he shuts me down.
I don't know what to do anymore, hes not been kind over my pain as I've had previous problems and i think hes sick of it. I'm still trying to work 33 hrs a week and still do everything i did b4. Kids have always been my domain they are now both turning adults but dd still needs quite a lot of driving around as shes at college. We also have s dog thst i walk.
Husband is earning more, we never had joint finances but im really struggling due to debt I have asked for more help but he won't discuss things..
Anyway this weekend my pain got worse my husband has been intolerance dd oversleeps every week despite me waking her and we had a falling out. Ive been off work since unable to pull myself together as im also taking heavy duty pain killers..