Spending Christmas day together with ExH for DC sake again this year. 3 of 4 years since our divorce we have spent the day together. I have not minded hosting as it means I do things (cooking etc) the way I like them and I get to stay at home and DC can open presents with his dad too.
Obviously part of me feels sad that DC has to do this at all, though to be honest I feel like that all the time anyway. DC is delighted that dad will come over for Christmas day. Of course I don't get much from it and I am only doing this for DC and I am accommodating his dad who isn't proactive enough to suggest anything else. I do wonder if it would be better to have clearer boundaries especially at Christmas or other celebrations. I am going through a lot of my own quiet upsets and stress but maintaining a calm exterior for everything at the moment. I imagine my inner anguish will grow as the Christmas period gets underway. I don't have any people to turn to so it is difficult anyway.
Anyone else treading this difficult path? Please share your experiences.