I don't know where to start with thing.
I am with my fiance a number of years. It's a long term engagement and I am having cold feet about the whole thing.
Within 6 months of our engagement, the sex life between us started dwindling from his side.
I am too tired to write a long post.
Everything else is beginning to fade. I stopped making an effort within the bedroom about two years ago in 2023. This was after years of a gap from his side. I was so sick of things being one sided.
We don't sleep together any more. The last time I asked him was a few months ago and he made an excuse and I didn't ask him again.
Up until recently we still had little dates. He always made an effort outside of the bedroom. But lately he's not any more. He was always there to help me whenever I needed anything. Now, not so much. He's letting me down more and more. Like leaving me to struggle in the rain to catch a bus instead of giving me a lift whereas before he used to help me.
A few weeks ago I found a laptop on his bedroom floor. He doesn't work in an office or work from home. He really has no work to be doing on a laptop and it hit me in that, I think he's likely watching porn. I think maybe he might have an addiction to it where he needs it to get to sleep or something. I don't know.
I was never against porn per se but I never realised things would turn out to be like this.
We work different schedules too and we don't have any more dates either.
I don't understand it. Up until very recently, he would anything for me outside of the bedroom. Maybe he realised that he was failing in the bedroom so he tried to make up for it in other ways. Now I notice much more dwlinding. Everything from communications to physical acts.