Hiya all, first time poster so please be gentle with me !
I'm not sure where to start to be honest, I’m a mid 30s married mum of 3, very happy in all aspects of my life. Loving husband, fantastic kids, enjoying life really.
A few weeks ago I noticed at school a new mum who id not seen before, probably my age she has a little boy in my daughters class so we kind of stand in the same area of the playground at pick up.
I’ve never seen her talk to any of the other mums, she arrives collects her son then leaves, nothing unusual about that I know.
The problem started about a week ago, I was waiting at pick up when I happened to look up and I saw her arrive. She had obviously spent some time getting ready as she looked extremely well presented. She’s usually in normal mum uniform lol messy bun, hoody (like me !) but on this particular day she was wearing a lovely long spotted dress, heals, hair down and wearing a lovely knee length black fur coat she looked amazing.
I couldn’t help myself but stare, she did briefly look at me catching me staring but a lot of the other parents where looking as well.
I couldn’t stop looking at her as discreetly as I could, our kids came out at the same time so we walked back to the car park together, but not “together” if you know what I mean my Daugher and I walked a few paces behind.
Ive never been so intrigued by another women before, but she looked so beautiful it made me feel rather uncomfortable as in I didn’t know how to manage it internally.
As I got my little one into the car, and got ready to leave we did again lock eyes across the car park, she gave me an awkward smile and I kind of waved back. I felt so embarrassed!
Ive seen her every pick up this week, but haven’t plucked up the courage to say hi! the coward I am I know. Yesterday afternoon she arrived again all made up, jeans, boots, shirt and the fur coat again.
I’ll be honest now, please don’t judge but I do have a thing for fur - I’ve not told my husband nor do I have the confidence to buy or wear one so I’m very much embarrassed to even say it out loud.
When I saw her though, my body physically tensed up I’m sure I went bright red as well it certainly felt like it !
I just want to make it clear I’m not a lesbian, I’m heterosexual and I love my husband so so very much.
What should I do ? Do I talk to her? Do I ignore the feelings ? Am I being selfish ? What do I hope to achieve ?
Help me guys please x